CC 3.4.139

aparādha haya mora, nāhika nistāra
jagannātheha nā dekhiye, — e duḥkha apāra

aparādha - offense; haya - is; mora - mine; nāhika nistāra - there is no deliverance; jagannātheha - also Lord Jagannātha; nā dekhiye - I cannot see; e - this; duḥkha apāra - great unhappiness.

Text

“In this way I am committing offenses at His lotus feet, and from these offenses I shall certainly not be delivered. At the same time, I cannot see Lord Jagannātha. This is my great unhappiness.

Purport

Sri Caitanya Caritamrita. Antya-lila

Chapter 4: Sanatana Gosvami Visits the Lord at Jagannatha Puri. Text 139

“In this way I am committing offenses at His lotus feet, and from these offenses I shall certainly not be delivered. At the same time, I cannot see Lord Jagannātha. This is my great unhappiness.