yasya - of whom; utsaṅga-sukha-āśayā - by the desire for the happiness of the association; śithilitā - slackened; gurvī - very great; gurubhyaḥ - unto the superiors; trapā - bashfulness; prāṇebhyaḥ - than My life; api - although; suhṛt-tamāḥ - more dear; sakhi - O My dear friend; tathā - similarly; yūyam - you; parikleśitāḥ - so much troubled; dharmaḥ - duties to My husband; saḥ - that; api - also; mahān - very great; mayā - by Me; na - not; gaṇitaḥ - cared for; sādhvībhiḥ - by the most chaste women; adhyāsitaḥ - practiced; dhik dhairyam - to hell with patience; tat - by Him; upekṣitā - neglected; api - although; yat - which; aham - I; jīvāmi - am living; pāpīyasī - the most sinful.

“ ‘Desiring the happiness of His association and embraces, My dear friend, I disregarded even My superiors and relaxed My shyness and gravity before them. Furthermore, although you are My best friend, more dear to Me than My own life, I have given you so much trouble. Indeed, I even put aside the vow of dedication to My husband, a vow kept by the most elevated women. Oh, alas! Although He is now neglecting Me, I am so sinful that I am still living. Therefore I must condemn My so-called patience.’