ahaá¹ ca tad-brahma-kuleūṣivÄá¹s tad-upeká¹£ayÄdig-deÅ›a-kÄlÄvyutpannobÄlakaḥ pañca-hÄyanaḥ
Tad-apeksaya means “with the expectation that she would not give me up.â€