'pÄiluá¹… vá¹›ndÄvana-nÄtha, punaḥ hÄrÄiluá¹…
ke mora nileka kṛṣṇa? kÄhÄá¹… mui Äinu'?

 pÄiluá¹… - I got; vá¹›ndÄvana-nÄtha - the Supreme Lord of Vá¹›ndÄvana; punaḥ - again; hÄrÄiluá¹… - I have lost; ke - who; mora - My; nileka - took away; kṛṣṇa - Lord Kṛṣṇa; kÄhÄá¹… - where; mui Äinu - have I come.


Text

ÅšrÄ« Caitanya MahÄprabhu said, “I found Kṛṣṇa, the Lord of Vá¹›ndÄvana, but I have lost Him again. Who has taken My Kṛṣṇa? Where have I come?â€

Purport

These are the feelings of ÅšrÄ«matÄ« RÄdhÄrÄṇī. First Lord Caitanya felt that He had been taken to Vá¹›ndÄvana, where He saw Kṛṣṇa’s rÄsa dance with the gopÄ«s. Then He was brought to Kuruká¹£etra to see Lord JagannÄtha, His sister (SubhadrÄ) and Lord BalarÄma. ÅšrÄ« Caitanya MahÄprabhu lost Vá¹›ndÄvana and Kṛṣṇa, the master of Vá¹›ndÄvana. At this time, Caitanya MahÄprabhu experienced divyonmÄda, transcendental madness in separation from Kṛṣṇa. At Kuruká¹£etra, Kṛṣṇa displays His opulence, whereas in Vá¹›ndÄvana He is in His original position. Kṛṣṇa never goes even a step away from Vá¹›ndÄvana; therefore Kuruká¹£etra is less important for the gopÄ«s than Vá¹›ndÄvana.

Although devotees who worship Kṛṣṇa in opulence (His Vaikuṇṭha aspect) may prefer to see Lord Kṛṣṇa at Kuruká¹£etra along with SubhadrÄ and BalarÄma, the gopÄ«s want to see Kṛṣṇa in Vá¹›ndÄvana, performing the rÄsa dance with ÅšrÄ«matÄ« RÄdhÄrÄṇī. ÅšrÄ« Caitanya MahÄprabhu showed by practical example how one can cultivate the mood of RÄdhÄrÄṇī and the other gopÄ«s in separation from Kṛṣṇa. Devotees absorbed in this mood do not like to see Kṛṣṇa anywhere else but Vá¹›ndÄvana. Therefore ÅšrÄ« Caitanya MahÄprabhu lamented, “I found Kṛṣṇa in Vá¹›ndÄvana, and now I have again lost Him and come to Kuruká¹£etra.†Unless one is a very highly advanced devotee, he cannot understand these intricate feelings. The author of ÅšrÄ« Caitanya-caritÄmá¹›ta, however, has tried to explain this divyonmÄda as far as possible, and it is our duty simply to appreciate it as far as possible. Therefore the author has made the following request in verse 11:

tÄte viÅ›vÄsa kari’ Å›una bhÄvera varṇana
ha-ibe bhÄvera jñÄna, pÄibÄ prema-dhana

“My dear readers, simply try to hear this description with faith and love. That will help you understand transcendental ecstasy, and at last you will achieve love of Godhead very easily.â€