nÄmÄny anantasya hata-trapaḥ paá¹han
guhyÄni bhadrÄṇi ká¹›tÄni ca smaran
gÄá¹ paryaá¹aá¹s tuá¹£á¹a-manÄ gata-spá¹›haḥ
kÄlaá¹ pratÄ«ká¹£an vimado vimatsaraḥ
Krtani refers to the Lord’s pastimes. Kalam pratiksan (expecting the time) means “When will that time come when I will become an associate of the Lord?†I had no pride or selfishness since I always thought “Who is more fallen than I?â€