tathā api - yet, in spite of; tat-abhipretam - His desire; jānan - knowing; aham - I; arim-dama - O subduer of the enemy (Vidura); pṛṣṭhataḥ - behind; anvagamam - followed; bhartuḥ - of the master; pāda-viśleṣaṇa - separation from His lotus feet; akṣamaḥ - not being able.

Yet in spite of my knowing His desire [to destroy the dynasty], O Arindama [Vidura], I followed Him because it was impossible for me to bear separation from the lotus feet of the master.