bilvamaá¹…gala kaila yaiche daÅ›Ä ÄpanÄra
ihÄá¹… dekhi' sei daÅ›Ä ha-ila ÄmÄra

 bilvamaá¹…gala - Bilvamaá¹…gala; kaila - did; yaiche - as; daÅ›Ä - condition; ÄpanÄra - his own; ihÄá¹… - here; dekhi' - I see; sei daÅ›Ä - that condition; ha-ila - became; ÄmÄra - mine.


Text

“Bilvamaá¹…gala ṬhÄkura abandoned his impersonal realization for the realization of the Personality of Godhead. I now see that my condition is similar to his, for it has already changed.â€

Purport

In his early life, Bilvamaá¹…gala ṬhÄkura was an impersonalistic monist, and he used to meditate upon the impersonal Brahman effulgence. Later he became a devotee of Lord Kṛṣṇa, and his explanation for this change is given in a verse (text 178) that is quoted in the Bhakti-rasÄmá¹›ta-sindhu. Sometimes a devotee gradually comes to the stage of BhagavÄn realization, realization of the Supreme Person, after having attained the lower stages of realization — impersonal Brahman realization and localized ParamÄtmÄ realization. The condition of such a devotee is described in the Caitanya-candrÄmá¹›ta (5), by PrabodhÄnanda SarasvatÄ«:

kaivalyaá¹ narakÄyate tridaÅ›a-pÅ«r ÄkÄÅ›a-puá¹£pÄyate
 durdÄntendriya-kÄla-sarpa-paá¹­alÄ« protkhÄta-daá¹á¹£á¹­rÄyate
viÅ›vaá¹ pÅ«rṇa-sukhÄyate vidhi-mahendrÄdiÅ› ca kÄ«á¹­Äyate
 yat-kÄruṇya-kaá¹­Äká¹£a-vaibhava-vatÄá¹ taá¹ gauram eva stumaḥ

Kaivalya, oneness in the effulgence of Brahman, appears hellish to the devotee. The heavenly planets, the abodes of the demigods, appear to a devotee like phantasmagorias. The yogÄ«s meditate for sense control, but for the devotee the senses appear like serpents with broken teeth. The devotee doesn’t have to control his senses, for his senses are already engaged in the Lord’s service. Consequently there is no possibility that the senses will act like serpents. In the material condition, the senses are as strong as poisonous snakes. But when the senses are engaged in the Lord’s service, they are like poisonous snakes with their fangs removed, and so they are no longer dangerous. The entire world is a replica of Vaikuṇṭha for the devotee because he has no anxiety. He sees that everything belongs to Kṛṣṇa, and he does not want to enjoy anything for himself. He does not even aspire for the position of Lord BrahmÄ or Indra. He simply wants to engage everything in the service of the Lord; therefore he has no problem. He stands in his original constitutional position. All this is possible when one receives ÅšrÄ« Caitanya MahÄprabhu’s merciful glance.

In the Caitanya-candrÄmá¹›ta there are many more verses illustrating this same principle.

dhik kurvanti ca brahma-yoga-viduṣas taṠgauracandraṠnumaḥ

(Caitanya-candrÄmá¹›ta 6)

tÄvad brahma-kathÄ vimukta-padavÄ« tÄvan na tiktÄ«-bhavet
 tÄvac cÄpi viśṛṅkhalatvam ayate no loka-veda-sthitiḥ
tÄvac chÄstra-vidÄá¹ mithaḥ kala-kalo nÄnÄ-bahir-vartmasu
 Å›rÄ«-caitanya-padÄmbuja-priya-jano yÄvan na dig-gocaraḥ

(Caitanya-candrÄmá¹›ta 19)

gauraś cauraḥ sakalam aharat ko ’pi me tīvra-vīryaḥ

(Caitanya-candrÄmá¹›ta 60)

A discussion of the impersonal Brahman is not very palatable to a devotee. The so-called regulations of the Å›Ästras also appear null and void to him. There are many people who argue over the Å›Ästras, but for a devotee such discussions are but tumultuous roaring. By the influence of ÅšrÄ« Caitanya MahÄprabhu, all these problems disappear.